this was stupid fun.

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=1514155777

i hope all four are there.

is it narcissistic to make 4 elves of yourself?

W T F.

the people upstairs are apparently OCfuckingD about vacuuming.
its like the "if i had a hammer" song, only with a fucking VACUUM.
in the morning in the evening all day long with a vacuum suck suck sucking above my head.
blahhhhhhhhhhhhhgr.

My LiP

is split open in the corner from being chapped and me chewing on it.
i feel like i'm anywhere from 7 to 14 years old.
i had very chapped lips as a child.
mostly because i liked to pull them apart and make them split open and BLEED in front of all the other girls in my classes to watch them go "ohhh ... EWWWWWW oh . my . god . thatsdisgusting"

i thought it was hysterical.

its less funny now that i'm grown and i just kind of look like i got in a lame fight.

but i still kind of like it.

mmmm, blood.

you know who is awesome?

effing DOLLY PARTON. i just love her.
i hate all country music in general, with the exceptions of Lyle Lovett, Dolly Parton, and maybe Chris Isaak. is he country? I don't know, but he's cool too. He just sounds like lounge music. But i've been listening to a LOT of chris isaak lately, and it makes me happy. As happy as Dolly Parton's laugh.

i have flashdance hair.

(and a much rounder face than jennifer beals)










half of me loves it. (the hair.) half of me thinks its a bit much. with the bangs. wouldn't be bad 'cept for the bangs.

i want to sleep

heidi dressed up for halloween. and i took some pictures of her. no pictures of me from halloween. i had my clockwork orange eyelashes on, though, and some cool fangs that kept falling off.

hopefully i will get to when i get back from alaska. luckily that monday is a day off! my first ever paid holiday! yay! and i'm am going to SLEEP IN. i havent actually had a real day off (no work, no guests to entertain, etc) since October 11. and i enjoy complaining about it. but my waiting is almost over.

i was on the moon. ... with steve!?!

joe came to visit. so did kaitlin. 'twas good.

I do this.

"After Harry left, Draco went and locked the door to the lab. He sat in the chair farthest from the door. Then he stood, paced a bit, and went to a closet. He closed himself into the closet. It wasn't enough. He dug around, moving boxes from the back corner and piling them in front of the door. He wedged himself into the corner. He pulled a lab coat over his head.

Then he put his face in his hands, and cried."


not much anymore. but i used to. the finding the smallest darkest space thing. and it was odd to see it written. nice to know that other people do this. i always knew they did, but it was nice to have it confirmed in writing.

adjourd'hui

quelqu'un me dit que j'ai les yeux jolies. c'est sympa d'entendre, toujours!

et.... j'ai passe' beaucoup de temps a' la travaille, mais je n'ai pas fait beaucoup. j'apprends UNIX pour travaille. C'est un peu difficile, mais je l'aime beaucoup parce que c'est bizarre! Comme "v" dit "verbose"! Personne ne me dit qu'UNIX est trop drole! Et j'ai parle' avec Jenn il y a une heure. Elle a beaucoup de faire. Elle et Alex voyageront a New Zealand dans novembre pour trois semaines. Un voyage bien, je suppose.

Habiter avec Heidi c'est bien, aussi. Mais elle est partie hier encore, apres elle n'a que reste' a' la maison deux nuits apres son grand voyage a bicyclette a' Montana. Alors je suis tout seule encore. Mais c'est bien - j'etudie l'UNIX plus! Et peut-etre ce soir je visiterai le cafe Indien pres de mon apartement.

tout en tout, ca va bien. et peut-etre pour la poste prochaine, j'ecrirai en anglais, oui? (avec moins des erreurs de grammaire!)

why oh why

am i still awake?
GO TO BED, ME!



geez....

poi-son-alli-tee

The Return of ME to... here.

apparently i decided to just take the entire summer off from blogging. but now i'm BACK.

a brief synopsis of the summer: Went home to Soldotna, worked half-timey at Kaladi and did some temp work at the orthodontic office Lisa works in... mostly just had a lazy last summer at home, which was nice.

August 3rd we went up to Anchorage to see Bela Fleck and the Flecktones. They were un-fucking-believable. SO GOOD. (be forewarned, P&J, you will be dragged to see them if and when they come to seattle.) The only rivalry for best-concert-ever it has in my mind is that amazing Bobby McFerring and Savion Glover concert four years ago. nothing else even comes close.

From the concert, we went directly to the airport to hop on a plane to NYC. We stayed there for 3 nights, letting (ordering) Clyde to show us the city. Needless to say, we watched a lot of films. (The Ten, No End in Sight, Sicko & Rocket Science- Sicko being my favorite of the four, i think. the ten was a bit on the lame side, but it had some really funny shit in it, too.) We also went to the Whitney Museum, where Lisa got to enjoy her late-youth all over again in their Psychedelic Art show, and MoMA, which was very cool. But COLD. compared to outside, where it was very very HOT.

oh yeah, did i mention that? New York City is HOT. not in a pleasant, kind of way. in a hot MUGGY yicky i feel sticky kind of way.

we also ate great indian food, saw blonde redhead for free - very cool - and ate at yummy cafes and cream-puff shops. Subways are cool, but they still confuse me - i missed the simplicity of the Metro... but Subway cars are air-conditioned, and metro cars arent, so thats definitely one-up for the states.

We left clyde then to go up to Maine to spend four nights with Lisa's dad and his wife Jane in the cottage they stay on in the summer on Chebeague Island. Its a really nice island, and the weather there was much more .... my style. :) Unfortunately, i didn't get to see much of it as the first night we were there, i tried to emulate a twist move from Hairspray in the living room and re-sprained my left knee. So i holed up the next day in bed, and basically just limped around until it was time to leave. But i still enjoyed myself a lot, talking to my Grandpa and actually reading (three books in three days! granted they were very small.... but still! Heinlein and Asimov are cool!), and finally venturing down to the beach a bit. The day we left my step-uncle and his family took us sailing on their gorgeous 34-foot yacht... we watched the beginning of a sail-boat race, then just baked in the sun for a while before heading back to Portland. It was nice.

Our return trip was a bit crazy. We flew to NYC first, spent our 12 hour layover venturing back into the city to hang out some more with Clyde and his friend Tom. Then we got back on a plane, had a stop in DC for a couple of hours, then took another plane to Atlanta. We had a 4 hour layover there, so Lisa's sister Marilyn and all my cousins and my uncle came to have lunch with us in the airport. I haven't seen any of them in 7 years or so, so it was nice to see them all, and see how much different my cousins look now. Most frightening perhaps, though, was the fact that my youngest cousin Tucker who is 11 looks remarkably like Ben (now-ben, not 11-year-old-ben). Weirded me out a bit. But he's a cool kid - puts up with his 3 sisters well.
Then Lisa spent the entirety of our 7.5 hour flight back to Anchorage with my leg up on her lap (still elevating the knee for the sprain), she was mostly sleeping. I was watching the 3 movies they showed: Spider-man 3, Blades of Glory, and Fracture. One little more hop to Kenai and we were finally done. It was a long-ass trip, but a good one, as we did a lot of visiting between flights.

I think i'll leave a further update on what is actually going on now for a later date, as this post is already ridiculously long. But i have lots of fun news about Now, too - so that will go up tomorrow or the next day.

i heart kubrick music.

here is the opening to my final paper for my independent study of music in Stanley Kubrick's films:



"Thank-You, Stanley Kubrick, for the Gorgeous Gorgeousity of your Film Scores.

When examining the musical scores of Stanley Kubrick’s films, one is struck by their poignancy, their power, and their overall elevation above other films generally released by Hollywood. I hesitate to give as my thesis “Kubrick’s film scores are amazing, and this is why,” but know that generally, that is my feeling towards the subject. There are a few flops in his body of work, Lolita (1962) being the most notable in its uncomplicated and conventional film score, but overall I would go so far as to say that Stanley has increased the musical education of the majority of his audience. His overall attention to quality, in that he uses acclaimed composers in their own right, or amazing performers adds to the overall interesting and compelling nature of his film scores. For this reason, his musical soundtracks leave longer lasting impressions on his viewers than almost any other films in existence (Jaws perhaps being the exception). Most importantly, though, what makes Kubrick’s musical accompaniment so exceptional is that, in most cases, its refusal to be simply a musical accompaniment. Within his films, music is so prominent and influential that it can practically be considered another character within the film, becoming an active participant in the telling of stories, ideas and themes. In many cases, his music can act as the emotional narrator to the intellectual questions that his works ask, making his films more accessible to a wide audience."

I'm pretty sure...

that this is what i think of when i think of cats. THIS is the image i get of what a cat "should" look like. Especially color group III.

But gee, that might be slightly influenced by this young man who died too young:
(in fact, i think this biased is influenced by alaskan cats in general... Heidi's cat Leo also came to mind...)

hebbedur ah uh eeh

i am SO inarticulate.

i just starting capturing my interview files to the computer, its the first time i've really watched any of my footage... and all i can say is that i'm really sorry for all the people i interviewed who had to try and decipher what it was i wanted them to talk about.

Hopefully i'll get better... that opinion was based on just the first interview tape. i can only hope.

Proof that FanFiction can be good:

"He needed to concentrate on spying and not getting caught doing it, and besides, he was fairly certain (when he chose to admit it to himself during those strangely introspective hours between three am and four) that just under the surface crust of earthy sexual desire, hidden feelings about Potter were growing and spreading like ugly little potatoes. Love potatoes. They needed to be picked and mashed and not allowed to get any bigger or tastier just at the minute. He could plant more later, if he wanted to, but any further nurturing of this Potter thing and he’d have a flaming rampant potato epidemic to deal with. And that meant he should stay away and not risk fertilizing anything by accident."


that is by far one of my favorite metaphors ever.


(for those of you who didn't know, i like to read online fiction where harry potter and draco malfoy are in luuurve... its a strange habit, but one i am firmly committed to.)

I am an Asian Woman and Jensen Ackles

Although, when i am not smiling i am considerably less-asian, and more manly. Manly like a CW Television Star. Yeah, I could have dated lana lang on smallville. Sorry. I'm just surprised that Jensen Ackles was someone i actually knew (he was a big part of smallville season 4). And i like that he was my #1 look alike.

also, I look absolutely nothing like Jensen Ackles. Nothing.

I am an Asian Woman.

my childhood dreams have come true.

i have amazed myself

Lettuce (!!! Jesus Christ!!! Like, more than 4 bites of it, too!!!)
Meaty hashy-stuff that was spicy but good
Sour Cream
Cheese (multiple kinds)
Beans
Tortilla Shell.



That has got the be the most diverse meal i've eaten in months.
Not to mention it was all on one plate.
With lettuce.
(i didn't eat the tomatoes.)

I'm not saying i'll get these myself, but i quite enjoyed eating it this once, if just for the layers of food that kept popping out of nowhere. I think it helped that i hadn't eaten since the afternoon. I'm not so good at eating while i'm working.

and underneath the cheese is BEANS!!!
i totally did NOT know that! Seriously. This is the most surprising food i have ever eaten.

And there is CHEESE at the bottom!
i just thought it was getting all gunky and i was kind of dreading eating it,
but its CHEESE!

i never knew

you could use sour cream as salad dressing.

i like sour cream, but i never eat it because i usually only eat it on tortilla chips and not a lot of other people i know prefer plain sour cream to salsa or dip, and i dont eat enough chips to make buying them for myself worthwhile.

so, good to know. sour cream = salad dressing.

You will not believe me...

but im eating a Taco Salad.

The janitor at work brought it to me, for no reason other than im here really late.
Hes really nice. and so i am eating a taco salad. I actually think ill be fine with everything but the tomatoes.

why is it so friggin cold in my room?

This is actually a post i started about a week ago... i dont remember what else i was going to say... but you can read it anyway.


i'm wearing a sweatshirt and slippers and warm pajama pants and i'm freezing. and heidi's about to open the door to take out her bike and things are just going to go downhill from there...

i bought a dvd burner the other day... so i can make silly copies of my silly movies and send them to silly people. :) and also because i've been downloading movies (thank you zach) and want a hard copy of some of them.

and at work today, waiting for datasets to download, i started reading a book for my research paper on music in Stanley Kubrick films. i thought i should acquaint myself formally with film music theory a bit and so started reading The Art of Film Music and found myself quickly on page 70. This is not a normal occurance. I suppose thats what happens when you actually read something youre interested in... which hasnt happened for me for 6 years or so...

this is delightfully disgusting

id like to say i wouldn't have run out in it and had a blast, but we all know i would have been running in sewage fluff in an instant - probably even if i knew it was sewage fluff. Fluff falling from the sky is magical, regardless of from whence it came.

Read the Story.


oh, and thanks to Call Me Ishmael for the initial post.

One more time

tomorrow i begin my final quarter of University of Washington undergraduate schooling. i'm taking 3 film classes, and working at APL.

I'm excited for classes to start, in the way that i'm usually excited for classes to start, but not much more than that. i guess i'm sad that this is kind of the end, but it still doesn't seem to be affecting me much.

Haley and her friend from Colorado, Katie, came to visit this past week. I hung out with them when i wasn't working and when they weren't drinking themselves into a stupor. it was really fun, but not particularly relaxing (which is why i've done absolutely nothing yesterday and today, and have enjoyed it immensely). We went shopping on tuesday and haley and i both spent lots of money. (your present was put to good use, lisa - i have 2 new lovely dresses from that trip.) Its nice to go shopping with someone who is as bad as it as you. and by "bad," i mean that she spends as much as me and gets the same ridiculous high from it, as opposed to Katie who lamented most of the day over spending $40 on one bra at VS. I know shopping is a weakness, and thats why i just dont let myself do it save a couple times a year. And i'd rather do it with friends. So, overall it was a good day. :)

And then a couple nights later we saw 300 and ate at an indian restaurant. both of those are firsts, at least in america. i really liked 300 - definitely a big screener - and its ability to suck me in. Though i do feel sorry for the boys who will suffer from women re-evaluating what they want in a man to include spartan manliness... Then when we ate indian food, i had the Butter Chicken (what a surprise, right?) extra mild. Which was a good thing - since by the end it was still a bit too hot for my liking. I am just not a fan of spicy-hot food. I like warm food, cooked food, spiced food, but i just don't see the appeal of having food create a burning sensation in your mouth. Its a masochistic tendency of humans that i just havent latched on to, and probably never will.

Oh, and haley got a tattoo (2, actually) that i drew around a pre-existing tattoo she had on her foot. Very flattering to me, and i hope that she continues to like it - especially once its been touched up like she wants. Bye now.

Ummm... life plan?

Occasionally i see some ad for a disney film or disney land or disney world or anything disney in general, and i get all weepy. ok, so like at least 50% of the time. and then i think back to when my goal in life was to play in the disney recording orchestra. i still think that would be utterly amazing. but just working for disney would be amazing in any respect i think, no matter if their shit has gone down-hill fast in the last decade (excluding most pixar linked things). Disney still just makes me unbelievably happy. I think working in one of the parks would be really fun. but those parks are all in southern areas of the county where i dont even like to visit on vacation unless its january... BUT, then i thought, HEY! EURODISNEY! i actually really liked Eurodisney. So maybe i'll think about that. They definitely need people who can speak english... and i could work on my french... that would be very cool. But maybe it wouldn't be so cool if i just walked around crying all the time because i was so overcome with happy fuzzy emotions. hopefully it would pass. anyway, i'm keeping it mind. :)

i heart teachers

i had the most fantastic teacher day, ever.

my wildland/amenities management class this morning i had a presentation - it was supposed to be on thursday but last thursday the teacher asked if i could switch because someone else had a scheduling conflict. so he thanked me before class for doing that. and even though i ran everyone over class time (i was the last presenter) he said i had a really good presentation (though its possible that he was just placating me after seeing my nerve-wracked presentation. i didn't feel nervous beforehand, i just got a little rambly and couldn't find the words... so i think i may have sounded awkward - but it was obvious that i had a lot of information to impart as well.) so that was good.

Then i hung out in the computer lab for a while and read some articles - then on my way to the Hitchcock class, i was walking along and i hear this "hey! how are you?" from Brian McDonald. He was one of the teachers of my Storyboard for Animation class last summer, and the one who told me that i seemed like an actor. I liked him a lot and i liked his approach to films from a more story-based viewpoint, but i wasn't sure if he would remember me so it was cool to have him stop me on campus and ask how i was. We talked for a bit and he reiterated that i should take an acting class or something because he thought i'd be good at it. and that he'd cast me. (i'm not sure if he actually would, but it was an awfully nice thing to say.) Then the rest of the computer animation kids walked up and told me they liked my voice over last year on our story reel. so all that was even more good than the presentation thing.

after my hitchcock class, i stayed to ask Tweedie (the prof) about the Bejiing Film Program - and so we chatted about that and then we were kind of talking about stuff in class and i told him it was so weird that i'm going to graduate next quarter and i don't have a Tweedie class! (i've had him consistently for a year now.) He told me i should audit his 1960-present film class again, jokingly, but in a way that made me feel like he enjoyed having me in class. Hes my favorite film teacher, so it was cool.

He also advised me about writing to Willis Konick asap for my independent study course next quarter, because his class is so full already. So i spent my next break before class composing an email about how i wanted to write about music in kubricks films, half expecting that he'd say he just had too many people in the class or something, and then i got a reply just a couple of minutes ago, that said: "I'd be delighted to work with you on the subject of music in Kubrick's films. A fascinating subject indeed... you can attend the class any time you want to, and I think it might be interesting for you to view the major Kubrick films, and you might want to hear what I'm going to say about them." So Yay! Independent study that i'm actually interested in and from somebody who sounds like they know what they're talking about (hes email said more to make me believe this was already a subject he had explored a bit).

So yay! Yay for teachers! I miss being a teacher's pet. I look up to my teachers a lot, and to have them recognize me as being a good student or whatever just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside.

Ce Neveu Monde ??

i love C-Neuf radio (la connection pop-rock de Paris)...

but at the moment i'm listening to Aladdin's "A Whole New World" in french. Its a bit disconcerting, somehow. I like my disney in english, apparently.

THURSDAY is the day

that i post most consistently. i didn't plan it, but now that i've noticed the trend i think i'll try and stick to it.

So i have something exciting to write about. But i'm not going to. Yet. Its not finished yet. I'll write about it next week.

We only have 1.2 weeks of school left! and finals! but they don't count! then i'm just un quartier away from finishing school completely! god. thats so weird. i know jayne is kind of weirded out by not knowing whats going to happen next year, and i would be, except... i kind of got freaked out by it 4 years in advance. i worried about finishing college as i was finishing highschool. now that its here, i'm not really worried or bothered i guess. comes from having low expectations, i think. i mean, i just don't really care too greatly about where i end up. My ambitions career-wise are spectacularily low or un-focused or something - comes from really enjoying meaningless office-clerk type tasks. I know that i can get a job and be really pretty happy with it, even if its not film related. not that i wouldn't love to do something film-related, but i'm more interested in learning more about production, etc. before immersing myself full-time into film - lest it bore me or lose its appeal or something. i don't really think it would - but i suppose it could. Living in seattle has already bored me a bit on independent film.

Ok. Going off to watch a depressing holocaust film now. (its Pianist day in my roman polankski class.)

chomp chomp lyposuction ?

lately ive been noticing teeth. i like my teeth pretty well, they're really pretty straight, just one little bottom front tooth is noticeably twisted, but even then, not that bad. BUT - jesus christ, everyone now has PERFECT teeth. So even that small little twist makes me feel self conscious. And i just have to wonder what our kids will be like, as all kids now already have perfect teeth thanks to the very customary procedure of parents taking their kids to the orthodontist to have them medically make their mouths more beautiful. Well, scratch that, not all kids. Kids with money have perfect teeth. I can see this as being another thing that separates people who are really poor in america - i would feel so outcasted now with bad teeth, i cant even imagine what it will be like in 20 years. And it just seems like such an accepted and expected thing to go and have your teeth changed so they are all pretty and lined up perfectly that i can see more and more people turning to lyposuction/cosmetic surgeries because they've grown up thinking that medical "fixing" of your appearance is what is expected. it doesn't seem like a good thing for us in the long run. and my own mother is perpetuating the problem. geez, lisa. So. i'm going to be proud of my little crooked tooth. or try to be. and hope that my kids have naturally straight teeth so i dont have to get them orthodontically influenced into thinking that their appearance is merely a matter of medical finesse.

senioritis has come again?

i haven't updated in forever. but i have pledged to update at least every time my father does. which is perhaps lame and not the best plan i have ever come up with - but i'm writing, so at least its working at the moment.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PETER. um, again. it was peter's bday last night, so i went to go be social with him at his petite fete. it was fun, i had a good time - everyone liked the cake i made, and i got to play some ddr and piano, and had a good chat with peter waiting for the bus. (there was absolutely NO ONE else on that bus. that doublebus bus... all empty for me... was a bit strange.)

going to classes has been difficult. i like 2/3 of my classes, i'm just having a hard time working up the _____________ to go to them. even though i don't really have anything better to do, a big part of me is just kind of like "classes? ...... meh, maybe not." So i'm trying to get over that.


And speaking of film classes - i may have to rethink my position on my favorite director. I like bertolucci a LOT, but he may be getting bumped down the list by Mind-Fuck-Polanski. I've liked all of his films so far, even the ones that dont make my brains dribble out of my ears- but those ones are the best. I havent had a movie affect/effect me in a long while, and then we watched REPULSION. and today i got to see The Tenant (or Le Locataire if you're in france). both made me have dribbly brains.

anyway. thats kind of what has been going on lately. everyone in the house seems to be listening to Paul Simon's Graceland lately - and i've finally downloaded a copy of it to my computer and am listening to it currently. i'm not sure how i escaped the paul simon (and garfunkel) revolution - apparently it never happened in our house. we jump straight from the allman brothers and the doors to peter gabriel and alison krauss...

and in a final and very sad note, jupiter is still missing. i can only hope that he was taken in by someone who is very nice to him. i miss him, where ever he is.

s a l u t a t i o n s

i apologize for not updating sooner. internet things have been erratic, but are now fixed. i still don't have any photos on my computer - but hopefully will soon.

lately... i moved back to seattle and settled into my room. i like my room mucho mucho, its nice and comfy with an amazing light set up in the closet that makes me smile everytime i have to get dressed. i do have pictures of that now... i'll try and get them up later.

and... i have decent classes. i like the roman polanski class the best, for more reasons than one- but it is / he is (roman) really interesting. and its easy. thats always nice. the hitchcock class is good, but i keep falling asleep in class for reasons i can't really figure out-and it might not count for credit, which would be a load of crap, but i still have enough time to get in the classes i need before i graduate. and the wildland public management class is pretty interesting, but i'm not sure how much i really like it. it also has the most reading, which makes it last on my list.

Diet Coke has changed their bottlecaps - and while i like the new design, they seem to slip from my fingers easier and i have a difficult time putting them back on.

ok. hope everybody had a good holiday time. i did.